I have many pictures to share, along with their stories, but tonight is more of a thought from my heart, and a song that truly touches me, and it is one of those that has actually helped shape, or re-shape the way I look at things...
It's by Matt Brouwer and I really encourage you to listen to the whole song, it's incredible...it's wonderful...
Come to me now
And lay Your hands over me
Will You find me tonight
Say it will be alright
And I will believe
Broken in two
And I know You're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe
(Chorus)
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
Open the door
And show me Your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like You
And You hold the key
Never again will I turn away from You
I'm so heavy tonight
But Your love is alright
And I do believe
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
That not everything is gonna be
The way you think it ought to be
It seems like everytime I try and make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
This song is so healing, it heals the spirit, and every time I listen to it, I seriously play it over several times...I have been so busy lately that I have noticed a pattern...I go so fast, I am forgetting to slow down, and enjoy the days that I have been given. I worry so much about what "should" be, or what I "must" get done, and so much other stuff, so much of my life in fact, gets passed by, or treated in a way that I would not ever want to treat it had my heart and mind been in sync with each other.
As a single mom, and being a full time student, life is hectic, and sometimes difficult. But you know what's funny? Whose isn't? :)
I have noticed that every time, EVERY TIME I try to make it all right by myself, it does seem to some how unravel right before my very eyes...and yet, I can't stop, and give it to The One who is the only Healer of my soul? Again, I find myself putting God in this tiny box, my box, saying,
"Ok you can only go this far, nope, not over there, just here. Fix THIS first, then we'll see..."
When I KNOW better than most that God, my God, doesn't operate that way.
This song helps bring me back down...to my knees, with my arms lifted high, in just a type of worship that can only be described by experience...wherever your at, He finds you there...if your broken physically, emotionally, financially, spiritually, or in any other way possible, the beauty of my God is that you don't have to do anything...ANYTHING first!
He meets you...right then, and right there...we go through life, and we have times where we are feeling beaten, battered, bruised, broken, either spiritually, emotionally or physically, and for as many reasons as there people on this earth...and yet, He's there. If I let Him in.
The things I struggle with are my own, and in a sense, they are my treasures, because they are a big part of who God has made me to be, and for that I feel rich. It doesn't make it any easier, but somehow, it's ok. Because He is the healer of my soul...He is truly the only one that can heal a broken heart, heal a broken anything for that matter...if we believe.
I choose to believe, because He has shown me His face in some very dark places...I choose to believe, because He has brought me out of some absolutely incredible things..some of which you might not believe at first.
In the quiet moments when it's just me, no noise, no kiddo, no TV, no radio, no anything...just me and the quiet...it's in those moments that I CHOOSE to believe.
