Dream Lilly

Dream Lilly
~Lilies Noir~

31 March, 2012

Birthdays Are So Filled with Wonder...Fun and Family

We celebrated my sweet Levi's 4th birthday party a few weeks back, and he had the most fun!!!

Of course there were kids running a muck every which way, and this was my first "kids" birthday party, so it was eventful to say the least :)







My mom with our siss dog, Izabella, and my dear friend Mandy...to Levi its Aunt Manny haha

This beautiful train turns into a desk he can write on, it was found at a yard sale!!




Now he cooks in the kitchen with Gramma

Everyone visiting and having a great time :)

Wonderful family from L.A. who we were so very lucky to have join us!
They went to all my birthdays, including my very first, the day I was born...I love it!

Me and Mandy, are family but not related.  I love her!

Mandy, Steven and the kids, we are all family

Levi's yummy cake...

My Holly and her hubby Jason...always a pleasure!





It was so nice to have friends and family all come together, he wanted the Cars theme, so that's what he got!

28 March, 2012

*Update on My Levi*

This past summer, some of you went on a journey with me and my lil guy, who is now 4.

We have been going through doctor after doctor, through different Neurology departments, different hospitals.

He has had this issue, it looks like a seizure, but we found out for a fact in August that it was NOT a seizure disorder. In fact, that was all they could tell me without a doubt.
They still did not know what was wrong with him, and because he's so young, just assumed he would grow out of it.  Well, in fact, as he is getting older, it is getting worse.
It used to only affect his hand movements, where today, it affects every muscle group in his body including his face, which gets disfigured and he grinds his teeth.
As his momma, it breaks my heart to watch him, do this almost constantly every day, and not know how to fix it, or make him feel better. And it physically exhausts him.
Well I finally was able to get us referred to UCSF,in San Francisco. They are one of the most prestigious and well known hospitals any where.  Well, we went down and spent the day there, and wouldn't you know, we saw the doctor for about an hour and a half, and she knew what was wrong with Levi, and how to fix it!
The other doctors wanted to push heavy anti-psychotics and things on my son, because they didn't know what else to do.
This child Neurologist who is an expert in her field said absolutely not!  He has a condition called Stereotypy. Basically, the body has not learned how to control any form of excitement be it stress, happiness or anything else.  She said we are each born with this, uncontrollable movements, but most of us by age 2 or 3, has learned to control these movements by outside stimuli.  But Levi's brain just has a hard time communicating with the nerves in his body when to calm down, and so his body does it continuously, unless he is outside playing or deeply focused on something.
But the doctor said that we must create a behavioral plan, and as he gets older, he will learn to control these movements, and he will be able to control everything on his own, and so we are all working together, his teachers, the neurologist and I to come up with a good plan for my sweet Levi.
Please pray for this, and that things would go smoothly from here on out, so that Levi can feel like he has a normal childhood...and also for patience, for all of us :)

Lay 'Em Down






This song is so fantastic!!
Have you ever felt like what ever is on your shoulders, whatever your barely able to drag around with you is just to much to handle?  Like it's going to consume you?  I think we've all felt that, and that's what this song is about, whether young or well of age, He never tires of us laying'em down, at His feet...What a treasure, that I can do that!

Soldiers pray, those struck numb by addiction(s) pray, those that are struggling to hold their families together, or maybe even just themselves pray too...at some point I think we all do it, unknowingly even at times.  





Come down to the river


Come and let yourself in

Make good on a promise

To never hurt again

If you're lost and lonely

Broken down

Bring all of your troubles

And come lay 'em down


All you sinners

And the weak at heart

All the helpless

On the boulevards

Wherever you are now

Whatever evil you've found

Bring all of your troubles

And come lay 'em down



We're all tied to the same old failings

Finding shelter in things we know

We're all dirty like corrupted small towns

We'll bring our troubles

We'll bring our troubles

Come lay 'em down



All you rich men

And the high above

All those with

And without love

All you burdened

And turned around

Bring all of your troubles

Come lay 'em down


Not much else is as healing as being able to lay all of you down, at His feet, and
having the trust to just let it all go...to entrust all you are, all you have to Him.

  After all, it's all His anyways, yes? He created you, yes? YES!!! He did...

He says we are beautifully, and wonderfully made!  I take that to heart!  

The Maker of MY Soul, has captured my heart...

Freedom

I have been away from my blog for a good while now, and much to my chagrin, I see it has been far too long.
Yet, I have many things to post about, and will get to those in due time.
however, tonight, as its about 10 p.m. already and I have to be up at 5 a.m. to start my day tomorrow, this post is rather somber, and thoughtful.
With the passing of Aunt Trula, a most beautiful and lovely Christian woman yesterday morning, I began to think, and have to cease...about those that God has called home, because their mansions are ready.
aunt Trula was my dear friend David's grandmother, but also his whole world. She raised him, and though she had many in the family around her when she went home, I think that David had a different connection with her.
And so it seems like a wave of sadness for the loss that is here, what about the joy that is there, for her finally getting to hear the words that she has pined for her entire life..."Well done, my good and faithful servant..."
That is, isn't it, why we as Christians, "run the race that is set before us?" That we travel the road less traveled, and we pick up our cross whatever it may be, and follow Him?
She had the front porch light on, in the days before she went home, so that her beloved husband could find his way to come for her and take her to heaven.  What a precious moment, and a precious thought.

It can be so hard for us to continue running that race, when things don't go our way, life gets frustrating and it seems like we have exhausted all our options...but then Jesus swoops in, and says "here, take my yoke...it is so much easier to carry, you won't believe it."  And we don't.  We argue, we complain, we grab tighter than life itself to old hurts, habits and hang ups.
And for what?  For extra punishment?  Sometimes, I think so.
I found a song, and it is kind of like my own personal mission statement.  I encourage you to listen to it sometime, you tube it :)
But there is power in these words, power that can only come from once source.


Run Kid Run - FreedomFrom the album Love At The Core
All my chains I can't disengage
and I don't believe that I want to
One hand sings your praise the other brings me shame
I have selfishness to blame

Chorus:
And I'm singing for freedom
I know I'm not the only one
praying to the one
who can bring me this freedom
I'm ready for change

Broken down I lay
I keep holding my chains
No longer bound but here I stay
I scream Father please
I need rescuing I need You and You alone

Chorus:

Still You patiently await
yet I won't just let go
I see You and You alone
saying come follow me despair has come so you can see
release

And so I'm singing for freedom
and so I'm singing for freedom
The time has come separation lost the war to love
Take my hand grace has found you where you once began
Your alive your alive in the waking of new life
Take my hand in the end there's only love
There's only love

There's only singing for freedom
I know I'm not the only one
praying to the one
who can bring me this freedom
and I'm ready for I'm ready for
Father please I need rescuing
I need You and You alone